I am not nasty to you. But today I might have sounded like a jerk. I never want to hurt you. I love you. Tomorrow also it would be the same. Do you object?
I don’t know how to be away from you, at least for a couple of months. I want to see the same dream as you. The dream we dreamt. It’s not ex parte. Its ours. How am I to live without you? I will simply die. I can’t live without you. I can’t.
It might be just one word. Or two words. Or no words but a sweet gesture. All my pains, hurtful feelings and sadness would melt and I would be up to speed with my life. Only you can do that. It’s such an amazing gift. You know me, inside and out. I don’t know what to do without you. You are my all sunny day.
P.S: if anyone does not like my post, please don’t read. I have already complained about abusing my posts in some of the blogs.
I don’t know what to do. I used to be so sure of everything and I had everything under control. But now I am not. I can’t be happy anymore. I don’t know what to do about it. I have tried my wits out but stuck in square one. All I bring is pain and hurt to everyone. I don’t know whether God is enjoying my pain. I want to be happy. I want to laugh. I want to live my life but I can’t. I am stuck without you and without you, there is no life. My life begins and end with you. I want to kill myself.
I am hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Sometimes I think I am mad. I wake up in the middle of the night. I swear under my breath sometimes. I wish sometimes I would have a super power, just to fly with you and never to return. I feel scared. I have lost all my excitement. I have forgotten how to have fun. I want to find a way out. I don’t know what God’s intentions are. I have not lost faith. But I wish he would not hurt me. He gave me You, right. You are my precious baby. You are God given…
Do you remember this? The very first memories of our love. I never knew we would come this far and now I have all the faith in the world that we are meant to be. What you and me have, is the real thing, blessed by Gods.
Have faith , Love…
I think it’s time to start the fight baby. You say you love me and of course I believe in you. But to prove that are you willing to go that extra mile, to work hard to make our dream come true?
I think it’s time. Do you?
I hear you. You are an open book where people may find easy to read. I read you comprehensively and I know how your heart beat at this very moment of time. You feel destiny has played a trick on you. You are supposed to be where you want and live your life the way you always dreamt of but no, now you have to bear burdens of others and it pisses you off. But let me tell you one simple thing. I think no one has told this to you in your entire life but I think you are meant for greatness. Now don’t think that I consider you as a super hero, actually in secrecy I still hope for that, but you are meant for greater things. Not this mundane tasks that bore you to death and make you want to take your own life because of the sheer boredom but there are better things in life.
All these years together, I want you to believe in yourself. You made me believe in myself and look where we are today. You are a tough cookie too. The toughest I have known but you lack self belief and trust me, wherever you want to go, you would get there just trigger those right emotions.
For me, please?