I don’t know what to do. I used to be so sure of everything and I had everything under control. But now I am not. I can’t be happy anymore. I don’t know what to do about it. I have tried my wits out but stuck in square one. All I bring is pain and hurt to everyone. I don’t know whether God is enjoying my pain. I want to be happy. I want to laugh. I want to live my life but I can’t. I am stuck without you and without you, there is no life. My life begins and end with you. I want to kill myself.