Yes. I am fat and ugly. You say I don’t give in myself to you, as I should. I am not making excuses. I am not much of a sex animal and I have feared so many years for so many people, my entire body is numb and I just exist. That doesn’t mean I don’t love you. Love and desires are two different things.
Sometimes I wonder, why am I alive. I mean nothing to any one. I am just an obstacle for you.