Head is about to explode. I have not seen you properly in 22 days. I never thought something like that would happen. We were supposed to take every step together. The good and the bad. This distance slowly killing me. Draining me. Torturing me. Making my dreams crush that I do not dream anymore. I lie still on the bed. Motionless. My heart is getting heavy and most times I just cannot breathe. I thought I could handle this. I thought I am strong. I thought I have planned everything. But I am no God and I am not sure wheather God exists anymore. Everything is a big mess now. I have made your life miserable. I have hurt you. I feel terrible every second.